Years of my Youth.
A walk with God (:Archive for April, 2009
Retreat
Obtained an excuse from Parade, to acquire a timely retreat to replenish my depleted (physical, psychological, intellectual and spiritual) resources, and prepare for the challenges to come. It proved to be immensely rewarding.
As I perambulate the maltreated path of solitude and soul-searching, the scented breeze, the scorching sun, and even the hubbub of Saturday traffic carried the voices of my Best Friend, the Holy Spirit. He spoke grimly yet gently, and compelled me to think, to reflect and to meditate…
Having a strong mentality is relatively easy, carrying it through is arduous.
A glorious dream costs nothing, but making it come to pass may cost me everything.
Having conquered the mountain once doesn’t mean that it is forever under my feet.
Am i the prizefighter, who fights hesitantly and half-heartedly?
Or am i to revert to the bitchy spiteful prizefighter that disregards everything else apart from the prize money?
It is easy to flatter with words.
Think of Goneril and Regan.
It is difficult to love in silence and through actions.
Think of Cordelia and Kent.
Would you be “foolish” enough to die an early but noble death?
Like that of Cordelia.
Or would you rather be “wise”, to die later, in the midst of senseless strive?
Like Goneril, Regan and Edmund.
Sigh.
After so many years of walking with Jesus, i have yet to understand Him, others, myself and the meanings and ways of life up to even a small extent.
i have yet to find my equilibrium in God, yet to live life the way He has intended.
Lord i pray that you grant me discipline, fortitude and perseverance as i set my mind to seek You, to glorify you and honour those who love and care for me.
Please guide me by the hand in wisdom, love and power as i humble myself to be Your child.
(: and i know that i’m not alone in this.
Of director, critic, audience, performer and artist.
Where is the artist in you, Zhuo’er?
Are you disregarding her?
Don’t ever do that my dear!
You’re not to be a mere performer, as God is not just your audience.
He’s your director, who knows you as you are, with all your flaws, failures and weaknesses that are hidden beneath the persona the audiences buy, usually without a second thought.
The world is full of performers who entertain & appease for personal gain, so be watchful and vigilant, do not be deceived or charmed easily.
However, most importantly, do not be one yourself even as you suspect the sincerity of those who seem only to perform.
Be assured also, in the knowledge that your Lord is not your observer/ commentator, who is perceptive & sharp but detached & aloof, ready to wash His hands off you or desert you any time.
Your Lord is faithful, He promised to never leave you nor forsake you, even till the end of the age, as long as you abide in Him, and as long as you trust and obey with childlike faith.
Therefore armed with God’s faithfulness, the artist in you can flourish in this hostile world.
Will you trust Him like a child would to his father?
It takes much more courage to be sincere than to be deceptive, much more strength to be humble than to be proud, and much more wisdom to trust than to suspect.
The God of faith, hope and love alone is mighty and able to supply you with all these virtues in a world of vices.
Will you trust Him like a child would to his father?
Then you’ll be surprised that riches, honour and glory come to you instead of the other way round, and they will remain with you lastingly and multiply as you be a blessing to others.
Will you trust Him like a child would to his father?
