Years of my Youth.
A walk with God (:Archive for Song
Thy Word…
Job 5:18 For He bruises, but He binds up;
He wounds, but His hands make whole.
I promise here that when i am set on high
and lifted to safety,
i will remember that i have been lowly
and mourning.
Times where i realize that i am weak,
that He is the One and Only…
who alone is more than sufficient for me.
Yes, Lord, despite the excruciating pain
and unstoppable tears,
my prayer is still the same:
Create in me a pure heart,
and renew in me a right spirit.
Cloth me in Your Presence,
and make me bear fruits in abundance.
Anna, if you happen to see this post (which is not supposed to be here), i want to thank you once again, from the bottom of my heart, for knowing God and loving Him so deeply, so that you can be such an effective channel of God’s blessing to me in my darkest hours and weakest moments. You are full of beauty and faith, to allow Christ to live and speak through you!
Also want to take this time to thank various people who have offered invaluable encouragement and support during this short but intense period: Mum, Dear Timliang, Charles, Allan, Yassy, Glenn, Ian, Gwen, Timloh, Daniel Loh, Tina, Lisa, Liu Yang, Sharon, Wilfred and Charmaine. <3
Last Day
And so it came.
Unbelievable.
i wanted to capture my experiences as an ACSib student in this post, but after writing and deleting many times, i realized that it is an impossible feat.
All that i can say is: THANK YOU GOD, for directing me into the school, for allowing me to experience soooo much and for guiding me through this final & crucial lap!
Honestly speaking, i’m very sad and reluctant to leave. Seldom do i feel a sentimental attachment to an institution, but ACS is an exception…
I was immensely touched and ministered by Ms Chock’s address today in the LT1. Her message is something that i will always treasure in my heart.
Prior to that, we finalized Project X. The responses were heartwarming and encouraging. Praise God!
(: He is great, and i am most blessed to submit to His will to be a part of this emblem of great endeavour. No one else will do, nothing else will do.
It’s time to bid this blog farewell for the time being (till 12 Nov).
A song that is stuck in my mind:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it’s way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve recieved I will sow
Amen!
A timely song recommended by a true ACSian
No More Night
by David Phelps
The timeless theme, earth and
heaven will pass away. It’s not a
dream, God will make all things
new that day. Gone is the curse
from which I stumbled and fell.
Evil is banished to eternal hell.
No more night. No more pain.
No more tears. Never crying
again. And praises to the great “I
AM.” We will live in the light of
the risen Lamb.
See all around, now the nations
bow down to sing. The only
sound is the praises to Christ,
our King. Slowly the names from
the book are read. I know the
King, so there’s no need to dread.
No more night. No more pain.
No more tears. Never crying
again. And praises to the great “I
AM.” We will live in the light of
the risen Lamb.
See over there, there’s a mansion,
oh that’s prepared just for me,
where I will live with my savior
eternally.
No more night. No more pain.
No more tears. Never crying
again. And praises to the great “I
AM.” We will live in the light of
the risen Lamb.
All praises to the great “I AM.”
We’re gonna live in the light of
the risen Lamb.
Illumination
It is amazing how things can change from one extreme to another within a short span of a few hours…
i was blind, but now i see. Thanks for those who have been praying for me!
Enough of being a distraction and being distracted.
This dryness is killing me. Time is running out, and it’s time to get back on track.
Gravely yet gladly.
I Simply Live for You
Say the word and I will sing for You.
Over oceans deep I will follow.
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind praise.
It would still fail by far
To say all my heart contains.
I simply live,
I simply live for You.
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place.
In worship we will meet You
Face to face.
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared,
Glory of glory,
Praise upon praise.
You bind the broken-hearted.
And save all my tears.
By Your word You set the captive free.
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do.
I simply live,
I simply live for You.
Will You Be There
Hold me
Like the River Jordan
And I will then say to thee
You are my friend
Carry me
Like you are my brother
Love me like a mother
Will you be there?
When weary
Tell me will you hold me
When wrong, will you scold me
When lost will you find me?
But they told me
A man should be faithful
And walk when not able
And fight till the end
But I’m only human
Everyone’s taking control of me
Seems that the world’s got a role for me
I’m so confused will you show to me
You’ll be there for me
And care enough to bear me
(Hold me)
(Lay your head lowly)
(Softly then boldly)
(Carry me there)
(Hold me)
(Love me and feed me)
(Kiss me and free me)
(I will feel blessed)
(Carry)
(Carry me boldly)
(Lift me up slowly)
(Carry me there)
(Save me)
(Heal me and bathe me)
(Softly you say to me)
(I will be there)
(Lift me)
(Lift me up slowly)
(Carry me boldly)
(Show me you care)
(Hold me)
(Lay your head lowly)
(Softly then boldly)
(Carry me there)
(Need me)
(Love me and feed me)
(Kiss me and free me)
(I will feel blessed)
In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?
In my trials and my tribulations
Through our doubts and frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear and my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I’ll never let you part
For you’re always in my heart
Oh yes.
I will still care.
i will be there for you!
So glad i went for today’s service
There were hardly any dry eyes among us this evening…
Indeed God has revealed more of His goodness, power and glory through healing our sister Danielle of cancer.
Our eyes have seen and hears have heard a beautiful testimony that speaks of the compassion and character of Jesus and the deep love among members of His body.
A little faith will bring your soul to heaven,but a lot of faith will bring heaven to your soul.A lot of faith and more will bring heaven through your soul-Dwight L. Mood & me
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus You’re all I need
My Healer, You’re my Healer
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
Jesus, Lover of My Soul
Jesus, lover of my soul,
Let me to Thy bosom fly,
While the nearer waters roll,
While the tempest still is high!
Hide me, O my Saviour, hide,
Till the storm of life be past;
Safe into the haven guide,
Oh, receive my soul at last!
Other refuge have I none,
Hangs my helpless soul on Thee;
Leave, ah! leave me not alone,
Still support and comfort me!
All my trust on Thee is stayed,
All my help from Thee I bring;
Cover my defenseless head
With the shadow of Thy wing.
Wilt Thou not regard my call?
Wilt Thou not accept my prayer?
Lo! I sink, I faint, I fall—
Lo! on Thee I cast my care:
Reach me out Thy gracious hand!
While I of Thy strength receive,
Hoping against hope I stand,
Dying, and, behold, I live!
Thou, O Christ, art all I want;
More than all in Thee I find:
Raise the fallen, cheer the faint,
Heal the sick, and lead the blind.
Just and holy is Thy name;
I am all unrighteousness:
False and full of sin I am;
Thou art full of truth and grace.
Plenteous grace with Thee is found,
Grace to cover all my sin;
Let the healing streams abound,
Make and keep me pure within.
Thou of life the fountain art
Freely let me take of Thee:
Spring Thou up within my heart,
Rise to all eternity!
Lord, teach me how to know You and love You more! Bring me to the place where i can sing these verses with all sincerity of my heart, even at the expanse of suffering and brokenness of heart. Indeed i ask that You purge me, out of Your grace, justice and mercy. Create in me a true & pure heart in a world of deception & depravity.
~ Sign (of contentment), love good old stuffs like this, used to, still is, and probably will always do. <3
A time as such
This has been an amazing week, i must say. (:
What a pleasant surprise to have Jesus revealing more of His Glory to me at such a time!
Thank God for giving me the courage to take up the responsibility of FireAC planning for the week. It proved to be an immense blessing.
It started off with God guiding me through the planning process, a long drawn out one with brand new insights into the “same old stuff” (Humility & Faith). Then came a defining and life-transforming sharing on Monday (i can bear witness to the fact that it is indeed possible to change lives within 20min, with the empowerment and the revelation of the Holy Spirit). A beautiful hymn was being taught too! Thanks John and Tim! (:
Tuesday was a bit of an unsettling surprise, but it allowed me to gain access into Daniel’s spiritual journal, where i caught sight of a very puissant analogy of silver and silversmith, which speaks of sanctification, and Christ-likeness. Then the Spirit of Truth and Holiness ministered to me when i was alone. He revealed to me my sins of greed and covetousness, rebuked me of not counting the cost of being a true disciple, challenged me to confess my sins to those who are held accountable for my actions and those i’ve offended, and finally assured me of salvation. After this, i gained the conviction to push for holiness with compassion (i’m a wretched sinner, it’s God’s Grace that has made all the difference. i have no right to judge anyone).
Wednesday Kenneth shared a powerful message on practicing faith and humility in our exams. We were somewhat forced to take notes. A very good idea actually. It was quite an experience with the howling wind and twirling leaves as well (:
Farewell Chapel was extremely moving… well shall not go into that…
Thursday was small groups prayer. Timlim, Timliang, Pettypoo<3 and i prayed for one another. (:
Friday was full worship in full-blast thunderstorm. Mervyn the Worship leader literarily had to compete with the thunders (it was a cappella btw!) and Benedict was literarily dripping wet (so wet that he couldn’t even take his seat on the floor) as he braved through the storms just to make it in time for FireAC. God’s hand can be clearly seen in the choice of songs that ended with Refiner’s Fire (can you see the connection? Isn’t it just so amazing?!).
FireAC meeting after school. Accountability among the girls after that. (: With my dearest jellyfish and petguin<33! Really amazing that 3 of us read the same verse at about the same time during our QT! (2 Tim 1:7 =))
Had Bible Study under Mr Lee today after Econs “tuition” with Mark under Charles who always enriches our minds, calms our hearts and boost our spirits (Thanks so much sir!!!).
<3 Samantha!
Discussed FireAC planning with Pet and KABOOM, exactly what God has been telling me as well!
Went to church after that and had a sermon entitled “Moments and Opportunity”, which in essence is about trusting in God’s grace in obedience. Had a good talk with Ruoen as well, after a long long time. (=
On the way home, Anna sent me an sms out of the blue: Proverbs 4:23, which has been at the back of my mind since the beginning of the week… God is truly amazing!
Oh, and Happy Birthday John (:
LDC
It has been a while since the end of LDC, but the experience goes on in my heart… you know, it’s like a glow there. (x
It is impossible to encapsulate the spirit of LDC in words. One has to engage himself fully, heighten his awareness and fling wide the gates of his heart & mind to feel it. i’m not confident enough to say that i have felt the spirit in his fullness (i’ll be undermining it if i say so), but i was moved…
Thank you God for being there, holding the weather, protecting us from major injuries, granting us strength throughout the ~90km cycling hike all around the isle (the most intense experience for many of us)… thank you for moving in our midst during combined worship, for drawing us closer to you and simultaneously closer to each other too… Sorry for the time we failed to revere You as the Lord of the camp.
May Your Holy Spirit direct us back to You whenever we stray!
(: The friendship forged with my endearing juniors is the greatest takeaway for me. It’s such a pity not to spend more time with them, especially since i KO for the last one and half days due to some biological phenomenon… Thank you my awesome juniors! You guys really ROCKed my world with your enthusiasm and amazing improvements!!! i’m truly proud of you guys.
Comrades! Well done, man! Especially the Adventure Comm (all the sacrifices you guys made was close to unbelievable), CE Comm (a privilege to work with each of you!), Food Comm (sexed-up Milo! xD Woohoo!), praying and preparing devotions with Jayne and LV up till nearly 3am etc etc. It’s really wonderful to deepen the bonds we shared through this.
Officers (RODed seniors included), thank you all for looking out for us, yet granting us sufficient freedom to express ourselves. Thank you for being there and seeing us through. <3
Even the severe deprivation of sleep, the amount of pressure that drove us nuts, the injuries sustained from the hike; the bona fide tears, blood, sweat… they are strokes that make up the magnificent painting that etches itself in our collective memory.
i’ll never forget this camp.
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One in Vision One in Christ
[The Boys' Brigade 12th (Independent) Company Theme Song]
Let’s unite our hearts together
for our God and King
And to our faithful Savior we sing
Allow Him the room to work in
everything we do
and He will always carry us through
And we’ll march on
in the power of His Spirit
We’ll be sure and stedfast
as we worship at his feet
We’ll be one in vision, one in Christ
Together on our knees.
One in vision, one in Christ
for all the world to see.
Let’s unite our gifts together
for our God and King
And to our endless Giver we bring
Let me take your hand
and we will run this race together
with the Author of life at our rein
And we’ll march on
in the power of His Spirit
We’ll be sure and stedfast
as we worship at his feet
We’ll be one in vision, one in Christ
Together on our knees.
One in vision, one in Christ
for all the world to see.
Breaking free
They want you to be like them,
they need you to be yourself.
Yet,
who are you?
Dearest Father,
Thank You. i really do.
Thank You for seeing me through all these days… days of physical strains, mental enervation, emotional turmoil, and spiritual dryness. Once again, You’ve humbled me. Ah… the futility of my fleshly strength. When will i master the art of victorious surrender?
Thank You for the brothers and sisters i have in you, especially John, Timloh (Bestie OSB!), Leb, Timlim, Dan, Karlo, Anna, Pet (Pettypoo!), Audrey, Jayne, Feli, Sam, Tina, Carren etc etc.. They are indeed Your precious vessels, people who will be there to pray, to encourage and edify. Thank You for wonderful pals too, too many to be named. May You draw those who have yet to know You to Christ Jesus!
Thank You for the privilege to serve You, to be Your voice in a sense (thank You for alleviating the soreness of my throat while on stage). Through today’s Chapel Worship, You made me realize that in order to draw closer to You and know You more, i need to cast aside all petty concerns, be obedient to Your call to serve, and just rely on Your strength through faith.
>< Formally sick now. Reckon it’s the time to take a day off to rest in the Presence of God, and clear that heap of work.
Random updates:
*Failed English!! T_T
*Went out with mummy yesterday (after like 4 months)! She bought me 4 shirts, 1 mobile, a pair of shoes, a bag, and treated me to dinner and dessert… Justin said it’s like Daughter’s Day. xD
*Miss the spectacular Rugby Match against SAJC (bleah x.X). Spent some time with Y4 Vice Head Prefect Timlim to prepare for the Chinese Speech Competition.
*Met Jingying(after being a Victorian, a Rafflesian, she’s now a Hwachongian) on the bus on the way to find my new phone (left it in a sports shop)! She prayed in the morning for familiar faces to show up, and it was answered!
*Hou Yue made me laugh till i almost choke on my Udon during dinner. xD Her sense of humour is stupendous!
